i wanna do more for myself

i went swimming today at the courage center and my therapist recited her notices of my improvement again. it makes me feel good when someone actually says they notice my improvement, i've been working hard and i will rehabilitate and get better, so that i don't have anything holding me back from doing things. i want to be capable of doing more for myself and i think that maurice wants me to stay here at the apartment with him and still need the help that i'm currently getting. he don't want to be alone but i don't always want to require all the help that i get now all the time. when i wanted to learn how to wash my own clothes, he asked me why i wanted to learn how and told me that i shouldn't learn how to wash my own clothes because the pca's will expect me to do more for myself and be more independent which is exactly what i want, now they complain about doing things for me and say that i'm demanding. this morning, eunita joked around and said that she shouldn't say something because i'd just end up calling robin (the supervisor here) and tell her about it on her voice mail and tyan told eunita not to say that because i probably would do that. that tells me that they've been talking to each other about me. like my grandma says: they're getting paid to do a job, they should do it and not complain.